A few weeks ago, while talking to an old boss about moving and looking for work, he mentioned that he thought his experience in the food industry weren’t rewarding.
And that word stuck with me. I know that everyone has different experiences pursuing they’re respective endeavors. But it made me think a lot about whether anything I do makes me feel “rewarded”
And as I’m trying to deal with an existential crisis, worrying about wanting money, or comfort, or something else; I never really think about what would make me feel like good. At least, not without first dismissing it because I don’t have any money to pursue the things that I think would make me feel happy. And any way, there’s no clear “this” thing to do. Just a few loose goals like wanting to travel and not wanting to be worried about money.
I still don’t know if he meant monetary rewards, but I took it as a sense of fulfillment, a purpose, a warm feeling that says to your being “Yup, this is it” or at the very least “this will do”.
And I think I need help trying to sort trough all the clutter in my mind to get at the root of something. Rather than mulling over it till I get distracted, which is how I tend to deal with my problems.